Mother's Day 2014 gifts

I made these cups and saucers for our Moms. In my handwriting wrote part of Proverbs 31 around and around the cup in a Sharpie. We all signed the saucers. On the inside of the lid I wrote their names upside down, which would be right side up as you are drinking out of the cup. After decorating, bake at 350 for 30 minutes to make them permanent.

 

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Senior Moments

Nathan is graduating from High school in May. I've been wanting to have senior portraits taken of him and just wasn't sure where to begin. My Mother suggested that I take them myself. Nathan was game for that so we made a day of it. We went to Orem to the mall first to get his hair "done". Then we just drove around looking for a spot. Turns out this bridge was really interesting. And I'm thrilled with the pics we got!

 

 

 

 

 

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9 Years in the Making

I had the fun idea of recreating this portrait of the kids that was taken about 9 years ago. I was so surprised that they all not only agreed, but were really excited about it.

I will be having it framed and giving it to Steve for Fathers Day. But I think I'm getting orders from all the family for a copy.

 

I have such great kids! They really do indulge me.

 

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Just so you know

I am getting at least 100 spam posts on my blog, so I will be turning off the comments feature for awhile to see if that fixes it.

 

Carry on.

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Goals

I have a goal. That is to  walk to the lake and back. It would be around 8  miles round trip. Something to work up to.  And I have to remember that I need enough energy to make it back (uphill).

This morning I got a wild hair and decided to really see how far I could get.  I would estimate I made it to within 1-1.5 miles of the lake.  But I didn't take any water, so I was afraid to go much further. All totaled, I walked 5 miles.  My daily walk has been 3 miles, so I almost doubled that. 

Now.  I'm.  Pooped!  But I feel good.  The weather was nice (72 degrees at 10:30), the scenery can't be beat, (well, maybe Hawaii or somewhere like that would beat it). And I got more pictures to share.

Dumped in the Wilderness

Since we moved to Utah, 2 1/2 years ago, I have been struggling with my faith.  I was raised in the Church of Christ, and I'm so comfortable and at home in that setting. I even went to a Church of Christ based private college.  But the closest CofC is almost an hour away.  I long for a church family close by. For the fellowship and kindred beliefs.  I've yearned so much for that that I have even considered attending the LDS church.  There is one about every 2-3 miles here.  Everyone assumes you are LDS, if you live here.  But I just can't believe the Mormon faith, although I envy the conviction of their faith and the unity amongst them. I can't bring myself to go to their services as though I bought into the Joseph Smith teachings. 

I tried a Baptist church and came home crying my eyes out. They had a woman speaker talking about her trips to heaven and what she saw there. Truly.  I mean, come on. Why does she get to see the face of God, when no one else does, and lives to tell about it.  John Wayne is in Heaven, you say?  Well, that's not so hard to believe.  But I'm having a little trouble with the fact that they make movies in heaven.  And that was just the tip of the iceberg of the garbage she was spouting. And I looked around and saw everyone enraptured by her "experiences".  I felt like I needed a shower when I left.  And I did leave early, by the way.  Thankfully, before the congregational dancing ensued.  Oi!

I tried a community church and couldn't get past the instrumental music. But at this point, I think I can get past it. I am dying inside for a church home. I love the CofC I found in SLC, but that's an hour away, and usually too unsafe to travel to in the winter. 

So for a short while I tried having a family devotional and met so much resistance that I gave up. I felt ridiculed by my own children, and that hurt.

One of my biggest regrets in life is not taking advantage of the church home that I had when I lived in Texas.  When I had one, then two, then three babies, I would get us all to Church on Sunday mornings. It was work, and sometimes my only motivation was that I would get some time to sit by myself while the kids were in Bible class or sitting with my parents.  Week after week, year after year, getting everyone ready and going by myself, without support of my spouse. I look back and think what conviction I had to shape and mold those precious hearts.  I guess when I started slacking off in attendance I thought a buffer had been built up inside the kids' hearts.  That they would remember what they learned about God, that their love for him would continue and grow.  My health the last few years there kept me home a lot.  But most of the time it was just laziness.  I always knew it would be there when I needed it. Stupid. That's what I am. 

Regret.

Once again I was crying to Steve about my unhappiness here the other day. In response Steve struck my heart when he said, "Maybe this is your journey. Maybe you've been dumped in the wilderness. Now what do you do?" 

I immediately thought of Christ in the wilderness for 40 days. Steve didn't know what a deep chord he struck in me by saying that. I intend to study and see what I can glean from Christ's wilderness experience. 

What I have learned from this Utah experience is like what I learned when I had my second child. I didn't let my first child cry, I was always right there when he needed me. But when I had my second, I realized, it must be ok for them to cry because I can't physically be in two places at one time, or meet both needs immediately. So, I thought... if I am physically unable to attend church each Sunday, or be with the faith that I believe in. God's grace must cover those things I am unable to fulfill. I believe it is my heart, and my willingness he sees. If I am seeking, won't I find? Sometimes it doesn't feel like it. 

So here I am in the wilderness, ironically, full of people.  My faith isn't strong enough to be the leader. And Satan is around every corner tempting me to stray. I am praying for the strength to keep seeking.  For the example to my family to renew their faith and love of God. 

I have failed in so many ways, on so many levels.  God's grace is sufficient.  It has to be.

Morning Walk

I have a friend in Minnesota who is always curious and welcomes pictures of my life. This morning when I took my walk I decided to document the things I saw, just for fun. So I thought I would share it here, as well. There were 4 hot air balloons up this morning. I just used my iPhone, so I couldn't get great pictures, but they will do.

 

The first half of the walk was on the back roads behind our neighborhood. the latter half was on main street in Midway.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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